Up again

Well I have been up for over an hour now (its after 3am) and unfortunately this is a common occurrence. I suffer from severe anxiety and this causes a lot of problems. I have been doing some reading because doctors are to busy to really help. They just keep throwing pills at me. All the problems I have could be caused by or made worse by low thyroid. You can have low thyroid but still be in the normal range. Side note I am running on one thyroid as it is because of a goiter that was large enough to be consider a small tumor. I had it removed and luckily it wasn't cancerous but now I live everyday with anxiety and a laundry list of other problems. Okay enough pity party, did you know you could watch Super Bowl commercial from the past six years on Hulu Plus? Well I know you can because I just spent thirty minutes watching random commercials. I love laughing it helps so much. I had to give up things when I started having panic attacks, like no more House or any other medical show :( On the flip side I can't watch Without A Paddle or Because I Said So enough times. I also found out I can no longer fly without being heavily medicated and once I am there I can't do anything but hide out in my room and cry and pray for it to be over. How would you like to go to Vegas with this girl :) It would be funny if it weren't so sad and feel so real.