First day swim lesson...tomorrow I will get one actually in the pool
Monday, July 23, 2012
hello and good morning
Today Maggie and I have our first day of swim lessons. I am an excellent swimmer (by my own standards), but it is parent and tot lessons. It is bringing back memories of the cold morning water and jumping around to get warm. For me this is getting out of my comfort zone, my anxiety keeps me from doing things I would like to do. I don't want that for my kids, so I have to work on my insecurities for them.
Today Maggie and I have our first day of swim lessons. I am an excellent swimmer (by my own standards), but it is parent and tot lessons. It is bringing back memories of the cold morning water and jumping around to get warm. For me this is getting out of my comfort zone, my anxiety keeps me from doing things I would like to do. I don't want that for my kids, so I have to work on my insecurities for them.
Sunday, July 22, 2012
Tunnel through the Smoky Mountains...The kids absolutely loved these
This McDonalds actual looks good!
Side note: this is down the street from Biltmore.
We were unable to get in but definitely going to make the trip back.
We crossed many bridges on our road trip and I took pictures of all them
for Finn. I am pretty sure we could take a trip to various bridges and he would be in heaven.
Savannah GA...We needed to spend more time here. This is another place we
will be going back to.
Aaron super excited in Savannah
Savannah GA
The first installment of vacation pictures
The Mighty Mississippi @ Davenport, IA
Indianapolis Zoo
What do you think they are carrying in all those coolers?
By the way there were more inside..hahaha
Horse Country...Kentucky
Smoky Mountains
Are you kidding me?
Cake pops...they are not pretty but man they are good. I have seen those cake pop pans but I think I prefer making a cake then throwing in a can of frosting. They should be portion control but obviously they are not. What are going do ;)
Saturday, July 21, 2012
A lot has happened since my last post, so I will be spending the next few post updating my blog.
To begin though, I had a panic attack last night...for those of you suffering from the recurrence of panic attacks I feel for you. I experienced my first panic attack 8 years ago. I was Christmas shopping and dealing with some personal problems at the time, when everything became disoriented, breathing became difficult...anyway you know the drill. Since then, they have been few and far between. One year ago this August I had half my thyroid removed because of a tumor and the months leading up to that I started having attacks almost daily. It practically confined me to my home, even driving a few miles from home without my safety person (that is what I call Aaron) I would begin to panic and have to pull over, feeling unable to get back. I'll save you from all the different stories and kind of embarrassing things that happen to me when I have attacks :P
Anyway, I have been working on getting them under control with meds but have realized that's not for me. The meds dulled my insides and the detox from them has been uncomfortable in the least...with a long list of withdraw symptoms including more panic attacks and the fear of dying that accompanies them. I stare at my kids when they are sleeping and hope I am around to see them grow up. It sounds irrational and probably is but in the middle of an attack, dying is what I fear most...which brings me back to where I started and as you can see still alive, once again escaping deaths grip. That comment would not have been funny to me last night but afterwards I need humor (that's why I usually spend the rest of the night watching comedies)
I have tried a few different ideas for this blog but have yet to find a fit.
I am home with my kids after a short stint in the "working" world...back to the hardest job I ever had but with hard work comes the best rewards. This will be our day to day and probably a little therapy for me...Thank you for reading.
To begin though, I had a panic attack last night...for those of you suffering from the recurrence of panic attacks I feel for you. I experienced my first panic attack 8 years ago. I was Christmas shopping and dealing with some personal problems at the time, when everything became disoriented, breathing became difficult...anyway you know the drill. Since then, they have been few and far between. One year ago this August I had half my thyroid removed because of a tumor and the months leading up to that I started having attacks almost daily. It practically confined me to my home, even driving a few miles from home without my safety person (that is what I call Aaron) I would begin to panic and have to pull over, feeling unable to get back. I'll save you from all the different stories and kind of embarrassing things that happen to me when I have attacks :P
Anyway, I have been working on getting them under control with meds but have realized that's not for me. The meds dulled my insides and the detox from them has been uncomfortable in the least...with a long list of withdraw symptoms including more panic attacks and the fear of dying that accompanies them. I stare at my kids when they are sleeping and hope I am around to see them grow up. It sounds irrational and probably is but in the middle of an attack, dying is what I fear most...which brings me back to where I started and as you can see still alive, once again escaping deaths grip. That comment would not have been funny to me last night but afterwards I need humor (that's why I usually spend the rest of the night watching comedies)
I have tried a few different ideas for this blog but have yet to find a fit.
I am home with my kids after a short stint in the "working" world...back to the hardest job I ever had but with hard work comes the best rewards. This will be our day to day and probably a little therapy for me...Thank you for reading.
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